...blank page...

A blank page before me.  The keys of my computer ready to break into a symphony of clattering tap-tapping.  A million metaphors and similes are at my disposal.  Cloudy ideas and images float around in my head.  An endless array of feelings to choose from.  But i can't seem to choose.  i can't find an idea that seems worth describing.  My keys go silent as i try to think of a reason to say something.  i look around my room.  See all the worthless things i hold dear.

i look back at the blank page before me.  The keys still waiting to be touched.  My mind is still wandering.  My fingers idle.
Then i hear the keys going tap-tap.  And somehow i write what i feel, although no one will understand, except for maybe me.
-written 4/28/2011-

...little toad...

Last night I caught a toad.  I took a sweet little girl, about two years old, outside and immediately she was asking about finding a toad.  Making a sweet noise with her tongue and looking everywhere for the little creatures.  I don't know how, but i found one and caught it.  When i showed it to her, her entire face lit up!  It was so sweet to see the innocent joy on her face in such a simple creature!

Crazy how much beauty was in that little animal.  It was so special to have that little toad cling to my finger and to be able to look at it.  To see it's amazing eyes staring back at me and the shape of its tiny head.  To watch it move and breathe.  Full of life.  A perfect creation by God.  A quiet reminder of all He is, and all He has done.  Giver of life, Creator of beauty, Lord of all.

-written 4/26/2011-

goodnight world

In bed
at night
with my eyes half closed

i listen to the world.

 

i hear the sound of the highway -

an ever-present noise.
 
A siren sounds,
i wonder where it is going,
and pray that it gets there in time.

   
I hear the honk of an eighteen wheeler
and the sound of its big tires on the highway.

   
A train whistles as it passes.

The streetlight outside my window shines in.

    
All reminders that the world keeps going even while i'm sleeping.
 
goodnight world.

-written 4/5/2011-

moonlight dance

Sand between my toes.
Midnight moonlight dancing on the ocean to a far off melody -
the quiet song of the waves on the shore.
   

Wet and soft is the sand underneath my feet.
It gives way to my toes as i run along the beach
flying in the rushing air.
   

The wind catches my hair
spreading it wide in a sail behind me.
i stretch out my arms and spin around.
Joining the moonlight in its dance to the music of the waves.
  

i splash ankle deep in the water,
smell the salty air,
feel the refreshing tide as it laps over my feet.
  

This beach is mine - for a moment.
  

i could walk along the edge of the water forever,
just dancing in the moonlight.
Free.

-written 4/5/2011-

........daydreaming.........

Songs play backward and forward in my head.
Music turned up.
 
In the middle of a song i hear myself humming along
and my mind is wandering again.
 
I smile at the visiting thought of someone.
Wondering if someone is thinking of me.
 
The song continues to play,
pictures of other days and imagined moments flash through my head.
  
Silence... 
 and i have forgotten what the end of the song just said.

But I don't care,
because i can see the face of someone who isn't here.
 
My glance falls on the school in front of me.
I pick up my pencil,
take one last glance out the window,
and try to shut my daydreams away for a little while.

-written 4/1/2011-