there are so many things i long to say... long to do. it has been so long since i have felt this way.
i am jaded but the mundane of the day to day. passion ebbs and fades when life's collar of duties tightens.
oh how i fear and miss that passion. desire to make a difference, to experience excitement, to find adventure, to become great. how have i now been aroused but this passion, desire? what is the cause? i don't want to be ordinary.
the emotion whelling up inside makes me want to scream. to break through the ceiling and fly.
but no...
there is no leaving my current state. no direction that my passion knows to follow. no fleeing from my family, my friends, my love. the feeling fades until it is nothing more than a fleeting hopeful ember, cooling slowly in my chest.
life is too necessary and practical to give way to passing excitement. happiness doesn't stem from adventures. how silly of me...
yet the question lingers... like the tide... licking up along the edges of my thoughts... and out again.
-written 10/14/2014-
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