Videos In My Head

Videos in my head.  Never a script, or voices.  Videos playing in my head, memories floating past.

 

Playing with my daddy on the old green rug up in my room when i was little.
Reading under the hot covers at night with a flashlight so mommy wouldn't know.
Crying, and la la making me smile with our "happy tissue."
Getting scratches all over my legs because i went behind the shop to pick blackberries for my sissy.
Building a fort out of old greasy sheets.  Hooking them from tree to tree.
Folding hundreds of bulletins before church on Sunday mornings.
Watching dozens of paintballs coming at me with no way to avoid them.
Cuddling with my mommy.
Sitting with my daddy's arm around me.
Changing oil for the first time.
Trying to do silly crafts without success.
Learning how to ride my bike without training wheels.
Watching mommy play the guitar and sing for us before bed.
Having picnics in the backyard.
Being an adventurer, a mommy, an explorer.
Just being plain silly.
Dressing up, playing with dolls and Barbies - ditching it all to get dirty.
Anything new, i'd do.
How many more memories lay forgotten in the depth of my brain?  Videos, just waiting for me to push the play button, and watch the screen in my mind light up...
-written 3/4/2011-